there's this gal called daphne.
she call
she sms
she pester
and she sms at midnight asking wat's ur bf doing
wat the fuck does she wants
she has her own bf, y aint she smsing her bf at midnight but smsing others bf instead
i'll definately give her a tight slap and get someone to sponsor mi acid if she still do the above after all the exams.
i have had enough of hearing all my friends telling mi that they saw u and who doing wat, at where closely.
love you
on Tuesday, November 04, 2008; 6:47 pm
I so wana join amazing race asia.
love you
on Tuesday, October 07, 2008; 2:54 pm
it's exactly 1 yr since 1 blogged. many things changed. for a quick update.... R and mi are no longer as close as before. i couldnt remember wat really happened that lead us to non talking situation. but he still do contact mi, give mi presents for xmas and birthday. eventually, i still went back to piggy but in the end, things didnt really work out for us as well. after the 1st break which is like 1 yr ago ard tis period, i noe i could no longer love him the way i used to. it was a dragging r/s. we started to have alot of conflicts and i would flare at him at the slightest thing. i noe he really tried his best to change after the 1st breakup but everything was juz too late. i still loved him at that point but it juz started to fade away slowly. during that period, clarence was in the picture as well.dumb mi. i nv expected him to like mi at all. i thot calling mi was normal like how we used to talk back in poly days. we spend V day together in the day. i didnt really wana go but he told mi he had already applied for leave. he bought mi a necklace from SK and flowers. Unfortunately, i ended up hurting him as well. i should have told him everything right from the start. but at that point, everything juz fall onto mi. everything happened so fast during that period of time. though valentine day with piggy wasnt as grand as before, we still managed to spend abit of time together. sad to say, that was the last time we spend an occasion together. den it was on tis day when i went for council chalet during that unfortunate february, i met someone else who is making a difference to mi life nw.
i was a game master with mel for the initation day for the new councilors. our stop was at tis pavilion and there comes the tired and lazy photographer of the student council. haha. back den, i didn't really noe tis person. all i noe was, i juz saw him the day before the chalet and he juz walked past mi without saying "Hi" cos we still didnt noe each other at that point of time. we took photo together at the pavilion. everything started that night when we were playing games in the room. after most people were asleep, we went to watch sunrise together. that was when he noe i had a bf at the point of time. but he told mi he can wait for mi to settle everything. we went home together after the chalet. everything was like being done in discreet. haha. that night we chatted on the phone and piggy was at my hse doing baked potatoes for mi. i guessed he noe something wasnt wrong. he kept coming to my room to see wat i was doing. sadly, the 3 yrs plus r/s ended that night. after the break up, there was still some emotional struggle.
following the week, baby and i juz couldnt help it but to keep on seeing each other. we met for dinner on a wed, went sentosa on sat. that sat, he declared everything. everything that i should noe. but some facts i juz couldnt accept it at the point of time. i appeared ok to him but deep down inside, i was really afraid of making the wrong decision. i told him that we should have a cool down period of a week before we continue anything from there. however, the feeling in mi was too much for mi to contain. i couldnt help it but to sms him the next night, telling him how i really felt for the day and he wasn't feeling as good as mi for the day too. both of us didnt really sleep well for the night, the next morning, we woke up early and got everything settled. everything started to fall nicely into place from the day onwards. there was many obstacles to overcome but i was glad he had always been there for mi. it took mi quite a while to accept some facts as well. it was a love at first sight. but i hope things will work out well for us. there are ups and down for us but we faced everything together. pray and wish for the best of us.
Sentosa Trip
Sending his cousin off
Simonopoly
Exam Period
from him to mi
from mi to him
he keeps on having flu during exam period
i noe u really got study
still didnt noe u're on camera?
having flu is terrible!!
arghh!! stupid Flu. go away
i tell u ah....
Ahhh!! I'm on camera. Haha
My 21st Birthday
helping him to dye hair. Save $$$. Haha
caught u sleeping with my pigs
i love KFC
love you
on Friday, October 03, 2008; 12:07 pm
it juz hurt mi so much to say all those things to you. having to end the 3 yrs plus relationship with you might be the biggest mistake or regret but i simply cannot live with all these nonsense anymore. all the things that you have done simply hurt mi too much. wounds got onto mi again juz when the old wounds begin to heal. not putting enough trust in you all along was a wise choice. how much i've put in, u should noe. i'm simply too tired. my heart died down on mi and you. in fact, everything should have ended long ago, but i simply keep on dragging on to it. trying to convince myself that i should juz dun bother so much abt it. i chose to be ignorant. and i suppose it could have been the biggest mistake from there. i may be young but i'm not blind or stupid. i noe what's going on around and i know what's happening behind mi as well. whatever you promise, i know one fine day it will be an empty promise again. u said u will be there but i know u nv will. how many of the times do u actually noe i'm upset? how much do u know what's going inside mi? my past do hinder mi and it always will. i always thot i found someone who can be a part of mi but i think i'm wrong. no one else will ever understand the deep side of mi. being able to hold on for so long, i'm proud of myself. u were the one that made mi hold on till now. i nv found my life as meaningful as these past 3 yrs. wat i really needed, no one will be able to give it to mi. much of the times, i know many ppl are juz taking mi for granted. i know that. i feel that. living on is so hard. it's even harder when ur past are still living on with u. i'm really really so tired of all things. i know i can nv be happy cos i'm nv contented. i'm so sorry if i've hurt u but of all, u hurted mi the most. my wish nv came true...
love you
on Wednesday, October 03, 2007; 1:24 am
i duno y recently we've been having so many of such conflicts and long slience over the phone due to those conflicts. i really duno wat u want and wat u really have in ur mind. it's not that i didnt bother abt switching over. i juz couldnt find a chance to cut in and it has nv been my habit to juz cut in like that. and at that point of time, it could only have been you to call mi. probably, we really have different perspective of things. the way u view things are different from mine or u're simply juz possessive! if i had not bother, i wouldnt even have switch it over at all and i wun even bother to call u back. worst of all, u simply ignore and refuse to pick it up juz because you thot i didnt bother. it's not even fair to mi in the first place. dumbest thing was, i thot u were already asleep, hence i didnt want to call and disturb you further.
initially, i had wanted to skip thru today's lesson and accompany you for ur big day. i guess there might be a change of plan. furthermore, you'll be having so many ppl to go along with you. i guess i'm already redundant. doesnt matter. anyway, i'm considered as nobody to you. and now,
I REALLY JUST CANT BE BOTHERED WITH YOU ANYMORE!!
love you
on Wednesday, August 29, 2007; 2:03 am
it's juz 1 day to his baby! we were counting down all the way from 8 weeks till now. 29 August 2007 is gona be a big day for him. i wana share all ur happiness and sorrows. take good care of ur baby alright. No speeding, no racing and no playing a fool with ur baby ok? happy working on 28 august. sorry that we didnt get a chance to talk tonight. hope u're not angry over it. shall make it up to you. thinking of the dumb dumb you right now. hope u're getting a good rest in your sweet dream land at this moment. u're being missed.
love you
on Tuesday, August 28, 2007; 1:42 am
juz ended a one hour conversation with someone called John. he was once part of my life 3.5 years ago. but due to some situation, we didnt get together. thinking back, it had been a wise choice. however, back in the conversation juz now, he wanted us to get back again. back to wat we used to be. i guess that may be a bit hard. things wun be as perfect as before. and how could he still have feelings for mi after so long. 3.5 years has passed. wounds have healed but scars remained. maybe everything had been a beautiful lie all along. but no point in coming to hurt mi again. accepting u as a friend again wasnt easy.TO: JOHNur gf loves you deeply and it really seems to mi that u really love your gf deeply too. i wun let you hurt mi again. it wasnt easy to pick up and walk this far. beautiful memories will be kept. i juz hope you can cherish your gf more. love her wholeheartedly like she do. since she didnt know the whole truth of everything, forget all things abt us and carry on happily with her.
love you
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